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Letter from a psychiatrist


Dear Reader

 I am truly sorry if you are reading this website following the suicide of someone close to you.  I hope what Ihave to say will be helpful to you in this extremely difficult situation and time in your life.  My name is David Horgan, and I am a medical practitioner who has specialised as a Psychiatrist.  I am providing this website as a voluntary service to the community, to offer some assistance in a very complicated area. Regrettably, you are not the only one affected by the suicide of someone close to you.  Unfortunately, about 8 people each week commit suicide in Ireland, and many times this number harm themselves.  I hope the following information will help you or someone close to you.

It is an Illness

The first thing you must understand is that people who commit suicide nearly always suffer from a psychiatric illness, often undiagnosed, which drives them to suicide.  Medical research over the years, repeated in very many countries around the world, shows that the vast majority (95% or more) of people who commit suicide were suffering from a severe psychiatric illness at the time.  The illness is nearly always Depression, with a minority of people suffering from Schizophrenia, Alcohol Addiction or Drug problems.  There are a number of other equally painful but statistically less common illnesses which also affect people, unfortunately driving them to suicide.

It is not generally understood that the vast majority of severe emotional illnesses are in fact breakdowns in the internal chemistry of our bodies, brought about by stress.  The broken chemistry is the source of great suffering for the purpose involved, who often does not realise why they are having such trouble coping and why they are suffering so much.

How does illness cause suicide?

What usually happens unfortunately, is that depression, and other psychiatric illnesses, distort the thinking of the individual who is affected by the illness.  They see everything around them in a very negative way, see the past in a very negative way, and in particular, see the future as guaranteed to be negative and full of emotional suffering.  The illness also makes people believe (wrongly) that there is no hope of significant improvement.  The person is then left with the one hundred percent conviction that life is currently full of suffering, and will continue in this way well into the future.

Frightened by this picture of guaranteed endless suffering, people attempt to escape the pain by suicide.  In many cases, people see what they are doing as a form of euthanasia for an illness they believe is incurable, without realising or being able to believe that the illness may well be cured in very many cases.  Even if someone close to you has died in this tragic way, it is very important to let other people know that the illness can indeed by cured should they also be affected by Depression.

Did they think of the effect on other people?

Another standard distortion of thinking in people with depression, and other psychiatric illnesses, is that they are a burden on their families and friends, and they are therefore driven to think it would be a relief for others if they were not alive.  Accordingly, very unwell people see their suicide as actually removing a burden from those around them, and do not think of suicide as a major cause of burden to their loved ones.

Surviving a suicide attempt

In Ireland each year, approximately 400 to 500 people die by suicide.  About 8,000 people each year in Ireland attempt suicide, but do not die.  The simplest explanation is that the sick bit of the mind wants to die, and the healthy bit of the mind wants to survive, knowing things will improve.  Accordingly, some suicide attempts are desperate efforts to escape suffering and go asleep, with the person not really sure whether they will actually die, but only being desperate to escape.  It is the healthy bit of the mind, which sometimes allows people to seek help after an overdose etc, or to indicate to others in some way what has happened.

Nevertheless, please do keep in mind that this is a warning of severe distress and perhaps emotional illness, with a significant risk of the action being repeated in the future.  This risk is much less if professional help is sought.  It is considered best medical practice for everybody who has deliberately harmed themselves to be psychiatrically assessed afterwards.

Are my reactions normal?

Almost every human emotion is likely to be triggered off by the suicide of someone we know.  Disbelief that the action could have occurred, anger, great distress, panic, intense sadness etc etc are all perfectly normal standard reactions.  It is also understandable that people will look for a cause for the suicide; it is very important not to interpret one situation or one event as the cause of suicide.  As indicated above, nearly all suicides take place in those who have quietly developed a severe psychiatric illness, and final events tend to be the last straw that broke the camel's back, not the cause in themselves.  Just as a heart attack may be triggered by a small amount of exercise or a vigorous dream, we all realise such events will only cause a heart attack in someone with heart disease that has developed due to multiple factors over a period of time.  The same applies to suicide, being the last event in a complicated scenario which has resulted in psychiatric illness, waiting for almost any negative to be the final straw.

Will I recover emotionally?

Unfortunately, there is a risk of you yourself developing depression as a result of the shock of this event and the subsequent stresses and consequences.  If the emotional pain is not starting to improve within a few months, you may have developed depression as a complication of your own grief reaction.  Do discuss this with your own doctor.  Research has indicated that at least forty per cent of people develop depression following the death of someone close to them, so that they now have two conditions to deal with, a normal grief reaction plus a depressive illness needing treatment.

However, you certainly will recover from the emotional pain, although you will of course never forget the person who has died so tragically.  If the pain is not starting to reduce within a few months, I strongly urge you to see your doctor or a counsellor to ensure that healing of your emotions is taking place normally, and to ensure you yourself have not developed depression as a result of the traumatic event.

Could the same thing happen to other family members?

Unfortunately, medical research indicates that the suicide of a family member is associated statistically with an increased suicide risk for other members of the family.  This may be due to the risk that a number of members of the same family have inherited the genes that predispose them to depression or other psychiatric illnesses, which may tempt other family members to suicide also, if the illnesses are not diagnosed and treated effectively.  Therefore, just as we advise the family members of someone who has had a heart attack to have their cholesterol checked, it is important that family members of someone who has died by suicide are themselves very aware of the early signs of depression and other psychiatric illnesses.

"Anniversary reactions" are a particular problem in dealing with grief, and this includes those close to the person who died, wondering about dying themselves also.  Special event dates, such as the anniversary of the death, special family dates and birthdays, and special dates in our society (such as Christmas etc) are all periods of increased emotional reflection and concern.

While we all miss those close to us who die, it may help to remember that the person who died from suicide did not know that there was in fact very effective treatment to stop the emotional pain they were trying to escape.  The person who died would obviously not want other people to die also due to not being aware of the very effective treatments available.

Where can I get help to cope?

There are many people willing and able to help you, and able to assist you in the long haul, not just the immediate crisis.  These include:

1. Your family doctor

2. Local mental health services or clinics

3. www..thepsychologists.com.au  gives a list of professionals,  and you can search for assistance in your local suburbs or townships


Once again, I am truly sorry if you are reading this letter, following the suicide of someone close to you.  I hope the information I have provided is of use to you.  I would welcome your feedback about this site, any suggestions you may have, and any support you can offer or organise.  

I wish you well for the future.

David Horgan    



Suicidal thoughts can be beaten! They are distorted information taking over your thinking when you are feeling down.

If your suicidal ideas are strong, the following tips may help you.

  1. Try to see the suicidal ideas as symptoms of an illness, not part of you. They are alien thoughts trying to destroy you. Get help from family, friends or professionals as soon as possible. It is much easier to fight these thoughts if you have help from other people to supplement your own efforts. Your family and friends would rush to help you if you were drowning or in an accident, so tell them now if your life is in danger from suicide
  2. Try to remember that other people felt suicidal and are now glad to be alive. This is the outcome in nearly every single case, so it is likely to be the outcome in your case also, even though the pain is bad at the moment.
  3. Find someone you can talk to, whether it is a family member, a friend, a professional or a telephone crisis service such as Lifeline (whose number is on the front page of this site). Human brains can understand and resolve lots of problems, but only when they have been put into words, so your brain can understand exactly what the issue is.
  4. If you cannot talk to someone at the moment, start writing down the problems and the feelings you have. But don't just write down the negatives, write down the positives you would tell someone else in your position.
  6. Try to have someone with you when you are suicidal. Go and see someone or ask someone to come to you, and maybe spend the night in their house, so that you are not alone at night with bad suicidal thoughts. In the morning, services can be utilised to help you.
    When you are affected by alcohol or drugs, they wash away your logic and intelligence, and let you emotions and impulses take over. When you are feeling really miserable, these impulses and emotions will drastically exaggerate how bad things are under the influence of alcohol or drugs.
  8. Get rid of the methods you were contemplating using.
    This will lessen the temptation when you are feeling particularly vulnerable.
  9. Go somewhere safe:
    This may mean you can go for a walk, visit friends, go to a movie, or do something that gets you away from the temptation to harm yourself. Avoid places you had been considering going to with a view to harming yourself.
    Just like doctors give people painkillers and put them asleep when they have bad physical pain, knowing the pain will be less when they wake up, so it is the same for psychological pain. Go to bed, and try to sleep. Even if you cannot sleep, try to use some relaxation exercises, and try to think of the positives other people would see in you and in your life. If you have been prescribed sleeping tablets, take a safe dose of these tablets; even if you do not sleep, they will lessen your emotional pain. When you wake up, you can access help from family, friends and professionals.


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