Please read this if you are desperate.
Painful conditions always pass, both mental and physical. Life always changes, and better times will come back inevitably. Do not decide to harm yourself for a problem that will pass. Please do not make major decisions about your life when you are depressed, or have taken alcohol or drugs.
You would never advise a friend to die because of their problems. Tell yourself what you would tell a friend. You would always tell a friend to Hold On.
If you are distressed, why not go to sleep for a while? Your brain will have solved many problems when you wake.